If anyone ever sees these being sold, buy them and I will pay you back. Seriously. They're so darn cute!

So... I have not fallen off the face of the planet- but I have neglected to create any new writings on my xanga since May I believe. I'm sorry I've cheated on you xanga, with the likes of work, summer courses, and the like. We will mend, I promise:)

My Friends! I've read some of your posts, and you all write so beautifully. You're inspiring women, forreals. Your creativity and individuality made me smile and wonder. You're like the rainbow-colored Christmas lights- different colors but you all shine so brightly and lovely:) I miss you.

So God is amazing, and the more that I do or learn or see; the more fingerprints I collect, the more sound bites that land in my ears, the more he is upon me the more I hunger for him. I don't want rules for the sake of keeping rules, but I want a love that motivates me to run away from the things that destroy me. I have to say that New York was full of empty faces carrying those hollowed, blackened eyes. I don't look at these people and think I am better, no-if anything I know EXACTLY where some of their hurting souls are and my heart aches for them. I know what it feels like to despair and hunger without knowing what you're even hungering for. I know what it feels like to be that hamster running in its wheel with all its might but remaining stationary. I would've done anything to have peace when I felt like a tornado was in my chest. I know that peace can only be found in Christ. I know this. But I get so frustrated with myself when I don't let my actions follow the affection I claim to have. I feel like I'm confessing but-if that's what this is so be it. I thought alot while I was at City Uprising. I have felt my soul cry out for more and more of the source that brings a calm to the swells of my spirit. I want God. I want a revival in my soul. I want to grow and fall and be intwertwined with Christ. I do.

I really do.

In other news, I have been researching the Shakers for a History course I'm taking. They were a Utopian Community that were very ...special.

I think this will be one of the only times I ever bring up the discussion of sex but. Well, here we go.

The shakers didn't believe in PROCREATION. I mean...they claimed to be a Christian society and last time I checked God created sex (inside the context of marriage) for good things. Be fruitful-multiply-fill the earth. lol. Geeze. They did give women equality to men which was a huge deal compared to normal society-women were just property with as many rights as slaves. But the two sexes lived in different living areas. Tell me that's not nuts. That's completly and utterly nuts. If I got married and then lived with a bunch of women, that'd be the dumbest thing. I wish I had a more intelligent way of describing this make believe scenario, but it is just honestly and essentially, dumb.  No wonder that Utopian Community didn't last that long-but don't tell them that. The few members still left alive today claim that the community did not fail. Seriously, look them up - I may be off on a few details but, look them up. Indulge yourself. lol.

Notice the short balding man in the second row. haha.

Jesus said it best. I do not need to be a Shaker to be an effective believer.

"My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world even as I am not of it." John 17: 15-16